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I did it again. I know you will not be happy with my decision. I know you will give me an earful of nagging for doing so. I am still thinking if I should tell you about this.

I choose to do so because this is my belief, my faith. I know I am over romantic but this defines myself and I don't want to change. Thing gets serious this time and I will definitely feel betrayed if thing does not turn out as I expect.

I have explained to you that I were prepared for the worst situation. You were not happy with my explanation. You said you felt painful for me, which touched me a lot. But overall, you still objected my decision.

I wish you could support me and accept me just as when you said I could have cake for dinner.
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Told him. Wasn't scolded. Lifted my mood up a little.